Resolution...

Resolution takes time, patience and acceptance of actions and emotions out of our control. Time can be days, weeks, months and sometimes years; even then, there is no guarantee of an agreeable outcome. Emotions often blind our ability to see a situation for what it is; hope can also stunt our ability to move forwards.

I find it fascinating that emotions, these things you cannot see or touch create such a physical reaction and cause such physical responses. It seems that life is a cycle of emotions; an eternal rollercoaster with no stops, just highs and lows and twists and turns and the occaisional 'jerk' which sometimes acts as a wake up call, a moment of realisation, slots a piece in the puzzle; then the rollercoaster starts all over again. On experiencing a 'jerk', do we act upon the moment and resolve the related issue or acknowledge the reminder and keep it alive but buried.

As I get older, I have started to filter through the people in my life and work out what matters; who and why. The number of people that matter reduces, our investment is greater and more focussed and the emotions involved are stronger and deeper - as a result, the need for answers, pieces of the puzzle and therefore resolution is amplified.

Life is lived forwards, but best understood backwards - where timing of the ride seems to be the cause of most joy and most pain.

Mood...

It is funny how sometimes the same situations create a variety of energies - as in, sometimes the dynamic works and other times it feels strained. I am not sure if mood, physical well being, what side of the bed you wake up on in the morning or what?! determines the vibe you let off, but it certainly changes often.

Timing is the key it seems; if words, moments, plans and goals are out of sync then it is hard to make good of even the best combination of circumstances. Perhaps it is just me that circles and circles until there is resolution. I doubt that, but wish I knew how to handle it better, be more absorbed in other things, thoughts, activities; more selfish I guess.

'You can sleep forever, but still you will be tired; you can stay as cold as stone but still you won't find peace...if the sun or the moon would give way to doubt,
they would immediately go out.'