Options...

I guess I have had plenty to think about of late; lifestyle, life choices, children, no children, committment, houses...so many important issues.

Just when you think you have your s*** together, something rears its ugly head. I am not sure why, I guess life is this ever changing state, of which you seem to have no control over, even though you actually decide your fate with every thought, word and action.

You strive to be true to yourself whilst build a happy honest life, being a good partner, friend, work colleague. Then once you feel you get there, all of a sudden you think...is this what it is all about?!?! I think that I want children and the family life, but then I think about how I am going to achieve it. I see the picture in my mind, but when I work backwards to how I get there, this is not easy - lots of practical decisions, no loving actions but sterile procedures....then this makes me think it is all wrong!

So, then I think, well is my life so bad as it is...no committment, no children, just fun, happy times?? I can't answer that either...both options are good options as I am very lucky when I look at what I have in my life; love, friendship, family. Oh, I don't know...I really need to stop thinking, turn off the think tap and just live for today - if someone knows how to do this, please let me know!!! :>)